I didn’t fall asleep until around 3am last night so I had a hard time getting up with my 8:30am alarm. I turned it off, then around 9:15 my Daddy called, so I woke up and talked to him. I still didn’t get up, but I did wake up. Finally around 10am, I actually got out of the bed.
I have a 4 tiered cake due tomorrow so the first thing on my list today was to bake a cake!. While I was mixing batter, Richy was making all of my fondant for the week and Joshua was cleaning (dusting off the corn starch that helps the fondant dry) and packing up the pirate faces he finished last night.
While we were doing that, Caleb & Sarah were unloading/reloading the dishwasher, and Noah and Christian were gathering up boxes and trash to go in our “burn barrel”. It’s literally a 55 gallon drum (barrel) that we burn trash in out back. Country life.
Asher was playing… as always!
Around noon – I started getting a migraine. Need I say more? I couldn’t really afford to go crawl into bed like I wanted, so I loaded up on caffeine and ibuprofen and pressed on. It wasn’t the worst migraine I’ve ever had, but any headache like that is so, so hard to deal with.
The afternoon: Richy left for work, the kids worked on school, then Caleb baked and decorated a cake for his best friend (we’re seeing tomorrow), we read books on crystals together (the kids are really interested in that right now), we cleaned the kitchen some and I filled & crumb-coated and chilled the cakes I baked earlier so they’d be ready to decorate.
These days with Richy working evenings are soooo messed up. We’re doing more school in the afternoon/evenings (mostly because I’m sleeping too late and it’s hard to get them to focus with Daddy home) and I’m having to rearrange my work so we can finish school (although normally I’m not “working” on a Tuesday anyway).
Around 4:15 we realized we had been so busy all day that none of us had really eaten lunch so we wrapped up the school stuff, made salads and warmed up leftovers, and relaxed a bit.
Then the kids spent some time reading and playing outside – I wrote a blog post, then talked Joshua into starting supper around 6:30pm (he made enchiladas!!) and then I got ready to decorate a cake! 😀
NOTE – everything above was written at the same time I wrote the blog post at Rose Bakes … around 6ish. I try to write things down throughout the day so I don’t have so much to write late at night. Other than a dull headache that wouldn’t quit, I was in a pretty good mood and really looking forward to the cake I was about to do… it’s different and unique and well… fun. I was really hoping I’d get to post a picture tonight before going to bed.
But from here on, things went WAY downhill. It’s now 3:35am.
I’m not sure how much to blog or not blog, but the rest of my evening pretty much sucked. What should’ve been a fairly uncomplicated cake, turned out to be much harder than I anticipated. It was a nightmare, to say the least. And that’s a major understatement. It was not supposed to be like it was. I’m an idiot … that’s my conclusion for the night.
So now I’m laying in bed, with the cake almost finished, but unable to sleep because I’m so mad at myself. I keep telling myself it’ll all be fine – I always worry and things always turn out great. But what if this is the time it doesn’t? I’m worried, that’s all. I don’t want to disappoint my customer. I don’t want to be disappointed with myself. I want this cake – like all of them – to be the best that I can possibly do. And I’m just not sure.
I guess we’ll see.
Oh, and I had lots of fun pictures to share with you (from earlier in my day) … but I don’t have it in me to edit and add them tonight. xx, Rose